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Date : Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Time : 11:31 PM Title : Putakhamnida :< Disappointed. Lost. Hoping. That's what I'm feeling eversince yesterday. Disappointed because I couldnt make my parents proud. Despite of it, they were still there for me. Like Mum said, "As long as you know what you're doing, we're proud of you." Lost because, what if I couldnt get the course I appealed? Where can I go? What should I do? & I couldn't think of anything but this thoughts. Ugh, it just make me sickk, I swear. I can die like that, really. Hoping. Yes I'm really hoping that I'll get that course. I'll pray hard, will because I still want to study. That's final! Oh please please please. ___________________________________________________________________________________ & the most saddening part is, Bestfriend & I will not be in the same Ite. This saddens me ALOT. Thinking of it makes me cry because we have been sticking to each other for four years & we've been very, very, very close this year. So close that we couldn't even see anyone else but just us. The laughters, the stupid faces, the gossips about Boys and Idols, the problems we faced, my hand that always rest on your shoulder & your waist(because you're so short), your hand that never fails to hold mine(because I'm so tall), the way you piggy-backed me, the way I piggy-backed you, the secrets you kept from me(eventually I found out), the secrets I kept from you(eventually you found out), you know my feelings, I know your feelings, some things you think it's cute(when I think it's not), the way you tied my hair, the way I tied yours, the way you compliment me(hehe), the way I compliment you, the way you melt my heart by calling/smsing me the word, Bestfriend(which was very difficult to pleased you but am so elated because like finally you did!) & lastly, the small bickers we had that make our friendship very, very close. Goodness, I just miss the things we used to do, the silly things especially. I just don't know how the environment is going to be without you by my side. Now, I'm missing you very very much, Bestfriend. So much :'< & yes, we're going to hold this friendship till the end. A promise. |
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